A Reflection of Inner Work

I've been doing the inner work for years. Even when I didn't know to call it inner work, that's what I was doing. I went within, shut the door to the outside world, and sat... just me and God, and a book called Healed Without Scars.

Through that book, God showed me... well... me. I saw how all that I went through in life shaped my self-perception and how I showed up in my relationships with family, friends, and lovers, how I showed up in ministry, money, business... in life. Because I saw myself as small and unworthy, I often felt unqualified to sit at tables God placed me at. I struggled with the very leadership that God called me to. I even self-sabotaged relationships because I didn't feel fitting or deserving.

Not only did I feel the way I did, I also constantly listened to the inner critic (ego) within me that seemingly validated what I felt. I constantly heard, "You don't belong here. You're not qualified. Look around you, you're not on that level." All while being at the table, leading others, and sitting in high places (literally and figuratively).

God had placed me there, but I couldn't truly accept it as my reality because I couldn't see past the distorted perception I had of myself. My inner image was damaged by a lot of outer conditions of the past and I didn't know it. Most people don't know it when they're in the depths of programmed beliefs about themself.

Healed Without Scars, was a mirror that God placed in my life to allow me to see myself at the level I was at the time. I cried at the turn of almost every page, and the introspection caused me to feel a myriad of emotions including anger, frustration, guilt, shame, disappointment, and but also hopeful that if I continued in the undoing of all the deep inner issues, I would one day be healed without scars.

The more I did the work, the more undoing took place. I had no idea I had so much in me that needed to be healed. I thought it was just the divorce I needed to heal from, but it turned out to be the person within me who attracted the marriage in the first place. The little girl who was sickly, whose parents divorced when she was two years old, who had been sexually molested by a neighbor's son, who felt rejected and unworthy most of her life. She had somehow meshed those conditions with her identity and everywhere God placed her, she felt unworthy and like she didn't belong.

Through inner work, God changed my life. It was shortly after that, I identified one of the many purposes of my life is to be a life coach helping women and girls h.e.a.l. themselves in smaller settings. Prior to that, I hosted women's conferences, teen summits, teen retreats, and many other events. What I realized about the events is that they hyped people up at the moment and often sparked the inspiration for change, yet beyond the event, people needed to be guided and coached in their own inner work processes.

As I reflect on my own inner work pathways, I realize the amazing tools God placed in my life to help me h.e.a.l. myself - the book was the first tool, then came coaches, classes, and my own spiritual path that guided me within. I'm healed, healthy, happy, and whole from the inside out and I wish this for every soul.

How I Can Support You:

The life we all currently live is a direct result of our thoughts, words, beliefs, and level of self-love. As a life coach, I've learned over the years that although many people know what to do to change their lives, they often don't do what it takes because they need personal direction, motivation, and accountability. Because of that, I created the Inner Work Coaching Program, a personalized one-on-one program where I walk you through the processes to discover and align with your True Essence so you can live a life you love.

I would be honored to work alongside you helping you do your inner work towards living a life you enjoy in all aspects.  To learn more and sign-up today, click here>>